At the beginning of this year I told you guys I was going to be more open with you, and in January I truly tried doing so, but I had to take time off from how much I was using social media, and my blogging to step back and work on myself. I felt like a hypocrite giving out self-love advice, style tips and tricks, while not fully taking care of myself and my mental health. I truly took 2018 to step back and re-evaluate myself, my relationships, and my life, work on myself, and most importantly feel like myself again, before I went out and started helping all of you.
I apologize for being so absent this year, but now at the end of this year I can say that 2018 has been my greatest year yet — it showed me my self-worth, it showed me how to love myself, how I should be loved, and it showed me what I really want for the coming years.
2018, most importantly, brought me out of one of my longest depressive states — the longest I’ve had in a while. Every aspect of my life seemed to be in disrepair. I didn't want to go to work, I didn't want to go out of my way to dress nicely, if I had a day off I didn't want to spend it with friends — I just wanted to spend my days in bed. There were days that I couldn't even look myself in the mirror without coming to tears. I felt lost. I spent so much of my time feeling this way, and it felt never-ending. I wasn't sure if I was ever going to feel the light again, I wasn't sure if I was going to gain my confidence back, or be motivated to do anything. I am so happy to be able to say I've found my way out of that darkness and am stronger than ever.
Now I can comfortably share my journey with you guys, I can give you guys honest advice that I follow myself, I can give you guys my favorite trends for the seasons, my outfits of the day, and my tricks on how I style myself. I have a lot planned for you guys and I'm really looking forward to all of it!
I hope you guys enjoy this journey that I'm on. I also want to thank you guys for bearing with me during this tough time that I have been going through, and I cannot stress enough that I am so excited to be sharing so much with you guys from this point on.